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This is my first time sending something through Reedsy but I have already published a book in a Portuguese poetry publisher called Seguindo as correntezas do meu oceano (Following the currents of my ocean), unfortunately the publisher didn't care about me and my work, they just published it and I didn't have any promotion, I did it on my own but it requires a lot of money and I'm still just a student, I'm just starting but there is a great fervor inside me for writing. My focus is on young people, especially those who suffer from misunderstanding, from the challenge of understanding themselves, and from facing their demons, those with mental problems like myself who have faced depression and anxiety disorder since I was 14. My focus is on Europe where I currently live but I also focus on the Brazil of one I am and it is part of my history. What I seek is to give a home to these people through my book, to bring them hope and understanding. Recently a boy committed suicide at my university and I did not know him, but I am glad that our paths did not cross because I would understand him, I would see his pain and say that it is also mine. He suffered bullying and depression but was never heard, and my words make people feel heard, identified, and that is what I want to embody in my words, the truth that everyone keeps inside, to bring attention to those who cannot express themselves. I write a lot of poetry because it is something practical for me and something is always running through my mind. But now I have started to write stories, and I already have two in development. As I said, I have become a bit pessimistic and hopeless about the publishing process. And honestly, I don't know how this will work if we work together, but what I want is not just to be directed to a path according to what I write, I want to get on that path and be received, I want to publish my book. That's what I need, someone who can look at my books, analyze them and direct me to publishers and send them to publishers with a chance of getting something. I have many ideas, and many books are written, but nothing has gone ahead because I know how hard it is to get something as an unknown person, but my writing is different, it has a part of me in it, it is real and honest, it is how I want people to feel and be with each other. Today at my work a friend of mine had an anxiety crisis and panic because she remembered a boy who was bullying her, and I have already suffered this, and I want her to know that I understand her, that I am here, even if it is through my words, my voice, I am here. And that is why I write, to help people like my friend, like me, and like thousands of young people in this world.